Week 2:Day 2

Ok, it's been an interesting day or so. I have a storage unit that we had put stuff in so we had room to paint and then sell our house. We changed our minds and are staying now. We'd mucked around with emptying it, but we got a letter saying that they are upping our rent by $25 per month, starting this month, that's got our butts into gear and we have 3 weeks to empty it.
I had a bag in there that I'd bought at Kylie's garage sale a couple years ago. I didn't have a clue what I'd put in there, but it turns out there were some "too small" clothes in there (we'd packed this unit before my surgery). There are two tops that are now too big and some shorts that I'd wondered in passing what had happened to them. They are loose, but not too big yet. Very happy with this find as I'm rapidly running out of clothes again, particularly pants.

I made another discovery yesterday. Now it could be bleedin' obvious to everyone else, but a kilo isn't the same for someone who is 150kg compared to someone 109kg or smaller.

I put on my black jeans yesterday morning, my favourite black jeans, so comfy, always loved them. They are now too big. I couldn't even do a belt with them, they just look too baggy. The jeans I ended up wearing are rapidly going down the same path, and the belt I bought to hold them all up with. It's been the first time I've been sad that something doesn't fit anymore.

Now, to get to my point, When I was 150kg, losing one kilo, while fantastic, didn't really make me look any different. It took a few losses to make my clothes feel looser, and certainly many of them together to change sizes. And in my last effort, about 20kg before people started noticing that I was losing weight. But I now see what people mean when they say don't buy too many clothes while you're shrinking, cos it's now that the sizes are starting to matter. I had to go and change a size 20 top for a size 18 one yesterday. I'd only bought it a couple of weeks ago!! It's just unreal! A couple of kilos is actually noticable in my clothes now.

I used to be quite a "Fattist" before this surgery. I'll be honest, I thought that anyone who wasn't around my starting weight size wasn't "bad" enough to have the surgery. I even went to the surgeon thinking that he might not do the surgery because I wasn't big enough.
I now see that I was just oblivious to what I had done to myself to get to that state, and now that I see what that kilo or two difference makes at the size I am now, I can totally understand why someone who had gained and gone up those sizes so quickly (and unlike me didn't put their head in the sand) would want to change their lives before they became like me! Cos I'm starting to feel the benefits of not having 42 extra kilos on me now that I am moving around more!

I didn't get the poor dog out for a walk this morning. I stayed in bed until 9am. Love the Melbourne Cup! Purely cos it gives us a public holiday. It was an hour and a half after the race was run that I remembered to check to see who won!
Anyway, I promised the girls that we could go swimming this morning since they don't have lessons today. We were there for almost 2 hours! It was fantastic. We're tired now, but it was lovely to spend that time in the pool and not be watching the clock after the first hour so we can go home. We played in all the pools, the girls had a ball!

We went to McDonalds for lunch. I tried the Mcdippers. Very yum, but I can't eat 3. I had 2, but shouldn't have picked at the girls chips afterwards. Was feeling a bit full! Bit scary that the ranch dipping sauce that I had was only 10 calories less than the dippers I ate!! (131 and 141) Should have gone with the honey mustard, it's only got 64 calories. And to add to this, you get given two portions of dipping sauce!! I only used one, but in theory, there were more calories in all the dip than in the dippers, and they're not the healthiest option to begin with! Yummy though. :-)

Til next time,
Ness.