The difference 12 months makes!!

I know there is a week until new years (Yeah, I know, I know, it's not even Christmas Day as I write this) but I need to look back now and see how far I have come.

I can't find ANY weigh ins from this time 12 months ago. I know that sometime in January this year I donated blood and weighed in at 154, so lets work from that.
I am now 106.9kg. That is a loss of 47.1kg. In one year. I KNOW that I wouldn't have achieved this without surgery. But even with all the complications and time in hospital, I am happy I went through with my gastric sleeve. Even when I hate it because I can't keep eating the yummiest food, I know I've done the right thing. It keeps me in check. It stops me sabotaging myself, or hurting myself with food as much.
I have dropped from a size 26-28 (stretchy 26s!! Denial!!) to a size 18. It took me a little while to realise that I was really an 18. I've even thrown out some size 22s cos they are too big. My self image is slowly catching up to my body. Even though I haven't lost much weight since September, (3 kilos compared to the 40 odd I had lost in the 4 months previous), the sizes are getting smaller. Some of this could be the muscle/fat balance changing me so that I'm getting smaller, but the scales aren't showing it. It could also be the fact that my stomach has stretched enough that I can eat a small meal, rather than the few teaspoons that I was eating at the start, so my calories in are matching my calories out, so the scales aren't showing it.
It's also me getting more comfortable with the smaller sizes. I didn't buy myself a scrap of new clothing until the shopping spree in September, so it's been 3 months of comfortably getting those numbers down. I'm wearing clothes that fit. I'm even getting compliments, so my taste isn't quite in my bum!! :-)

I am feeling more energetic, able to move freer, can cross my legs, comfortably do up my shoelaces, have both girls on my knees without struggling. My stomach no longer touches the steering wheel when I drive and I don't have to move the seat back if Ken's been driving my car.
I also feel almost "normal". I don't feel like a freak, the fattest person in the room. Not that I look for who is, but when I was in the 150s, I felt like I was being judged. I was probably judging myself really, but now that feeling is slowly disappearing.

I'm not going to do new years resolutions. I am going to enjoy the school holidays and when the girls go back to school, then I am going to get in the swing of losing the last 7 kilos so I can be in double figures. Then it's onto the 80s, then the 70s, coming to 75kg so I can have my victory photo shoot done!! :-)

Bring on 2011!!!

Til Next Time,
Ness.

Hehehe, just read my last post back. I made the cookies, they were crap!! Don't know what I did wrong, I've made the recipe before, but they went in the bin. The second batch I made was a different recipe, but the kids didn't like them! Ken and I loved them!! Oh well, can't please everyone, I guess. two nights of baking cookies in the middle of the night and that's all the thanks that I get!! :-)

Anyway, the last week of school is over and it was incredibly busy. I've just come home from my stepdaughter's 21st, the last event before Boxing day when I meet up with the extended family. I feel like I can relax now. I am so looking forward to spending the day at home tomorrow, not having to worry about anything! Hoping the girls will sleep in too.

The 21st was brilliant! We were on a property not far from us. We had hayrides, toasted marshmallows, sang karaoke. There was plenty of food, the kids could run around. It was very relaxed, just excellent.

But now I'm very tired. Hopefully now things are settling down, I might be able to think of more interesting things to write about in my blog. :-) Maybe even look at weightloss?? Maybe... :-)

Til next time,
Ness.

Just touching base with my blog. Very busy at the moment. Lots of Christmassy things to do, like wrapping presents, writing my kids' christmas cards, going out for lunch. I am exhausted!! But that seems to happen at 8pm. I'll get my second wind soon and be up til midnight. I have to find the energy tonight to make chocolate chip cookies for 5yo's class Christmas party on Wednesday.

Only 4 more days of prep left. :-( I'm happy that it's going to be school holidays, but a bit sad that her first year of  school is almost over.

Off to put the kids to bed and make cookies.

Til next time,
Ness

So, I wrote the email to the school principal. 5yo stayed home on Wednesday. We ended  up at the school, cos I had Bunnings BBQ stuff to do. The principal brought us into the office and had a chat with her. It turns out there were ANOTHER 2 kids who were giving her a hard time. The girl that punched her got in "big trouble". I felt much better, glad I gave her the day off and felt that the issues had been dealt with. I also took her for a hair cut. One of the issues we were having in the mornings was that she didn't like getting the knots out of her hair. She would cry, and it was one of the reasons she gave for not wanting to go to school. She now has a nice bob cut and has no trouble brushing it. So Thursday and Friday were so much easier!! She was a much happier child.

Thursday was spent looking at kitchen stuff. We will be getting a new kitchen in January. I just have to decide what brand of appliances I want in there.

Friday, Playgroup, canteen duty, grocery shopping for Bunnings BBQ, Pick up daughter from school, pick up sliced onions from pizza shop. take niece to Basketball game, come home, fall asleep!

Yesterday I spent the day at Bunnings Cranbourne, cooking and selling sausages. Last night I could barely walk! But we raised $1286 for the school, so I was happy with that.

This morning I weighed in. I lost 2.7kg! After hovering around 109 for 2 months, I am just gobsmacked!!  But I'm not going to do a bbq each week to help lose weight!!!

Today is more appliance shopping.  I'll decide today, after going to a couple more places to have a look.

Only 13 more days til school holidays!! Yay!! Only 20 more sleeps til Christmas!! Must find my list...

Til next time,
Ness