AS YOU CAN SEE BY THE YELLING, I'M STILL IN HOSPITAL. HAD THE TEST AND IT SHOWED THERE IS STILL A LEAK. I AM WAITING FOR A THEATRE SPACE TO HAVE ANOTHER STENT PUT IN.  I DON'T KNOW WHEN THAT WILL BE. I'M BORED, BUT I'M ABLE TO WANDER AROUND AND I'M SITTING OUTSIDE WATCHING THE WORLD GO BY, SO IT'S NOT ALL BAD. VERY TIRED, THE SURGEON WAS VERY POSITIVE WHEN HE TOOK THE LAST STENT OUT THAT ALL WAS HEALED. WISH HE'D JUST PUT ANOTHER ONE IN WHEN HE WAS IN THERE. I'D BE HOME BY NOW. THE GIRLS ARE DOING OK, 5YO IS MISSING ME, SHE CRIED ON THE PHONE LAST NIGHT. KEN'S DOING HIS BEST TO KEEP THEM ENTERTAINED.  LOOKS LIKE I'M GOING TO HAVE TO HAVE A GASTRIC BYPASS DONE AT A LATER DATE. TRIED EVERYTHING, BUT I'M OUT OF OPTIONS AND I CAN'T KEEP BEING STUCK IN HOSPITAL. TIL NEXT TIME, NESS.

quick update

I AM SITTING IN THE HOSPITAL. THE STENT CAME OUT YESTERDAY AND THEY ARE VERY POSITIVE ABOUT THE HOLE BEING HEALED. I AM HAVING A TEST TO CHECK THIS, THEN i CAN GO HOME.  I AM WRITING THIS ON MY PHONE AND ITK'S ONLY LETTING ME SHOUT EVERYTHING! SO I'LL LEAVE IT AT THIS TIL i GET HOME.

Was up at 6am this morning so I could have breakfast. I swear, it's the fastest hour of the day! I am now nil by mouth until I have my day surgery this afternoon. :-( I am having a second stent put in my stomach. I have one already, so I feel a little greedy getting another one, but they broke a string trying to get the first one out, so it's kinda necessary. The second one will help the first one come out. I have to stay in overnight, which sucks. I hate hospital beds. My girls were a little upset about me being gone, until their dad said they could sleep on my side of the bed tonight, so they're ok now. Gotta love them.

As I was up at this early hour, the dogs didn't feel the need to bark their heads off outside this morning, which was good for the neighbours, but no sleep in for me. I decided to choose breakfast over taking them for a walk this morning. As I am nil by mouth, I can't even drink while I walk. That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it! it's going to be 35 degrees today! I am already going to be thirsty by 11am without physical exertion!

So, busy day. Hopefully the aircon is working well in the hospital, or I'll be discharging myself early!

Til next time,
Ness.

Barking Dogs. Pity debarking is so inhumane!

I have two gorgeous dogs (and two gorgeous girls, but that's a side issue for this entry).

 I love them to bits. But I have a problem. They love to bark. Early in the morning. Today it was at 8:50am, which is better than the 5am and 6am sessions they've been doing, but enough that it pisses me off and has to get me out of bed to drag their furry arses back inside. Or should I say one particular furry arse. Raspberry is his name and he never barked until we got Penny, who taught him how. Oh boy! We got Raspberry from a pet shop, we got Penny from a family who was giving her away. Now we know why she was given away. She chewed anything she could get her paws on and barked. But we love them. Hence my problem. I now have to do SOMETHING to stop the barking. I can't smack their nose or squirt them with water, because by the time I get out of bed and come out, they hear me and come back inside and it's too late.
I'm thinking a citronella collar. Of course my vet is on holidays at the moment, so I can't get his advice. I don't want to go to a pet shop, because they'll just try and sell me something. The internet conflicts in it's advice and I just want the barking to stop in the morning. I can take the collar off them during the day. That's my theory for now. Something has to give. My neighbour actually called me this morning about it, which I appreciated more than her running to the council like she did last time.

...Ok, it's an hour and a half later. I got motivated and took them for a walk. They are suitably exhausted now, but I don't know if it's going to help tomorrow morning. It's going to be about 40 degrees today, so I might try and take them out later tonight when it cools down a bit. It will get me off my bum as well as exhaust them.

Lets see what happens tomorrow.

Til next time,
Ness.

Happy New Year!
I had an awesome night last night with friends at home. We had a few drinks, saw some illegal fireworks and cracked some glow sticks. Amazingly both my girls stayed up til midnight. 5yo was very cute, at 1 in the morning she didn't want to go to bed, claiming she wasn't tired! No, of course she wasn't! They were asleep as soon as their heads hit the pillows.

So, being the 1st of January, I must have a look at my plans for 2012. Weightloss, of course is the first thing.
First some perspective.

I joined calorieking.com.au in September 2007. I was 150kg. I got serious about losing weight in November, I was 151kg. I loved the program and decided that if this didn't work, then I was looking at surgery. At that point it was a lapband

what can I say? There is nothing nice about this photo.

January 2008- 139.8 Motivation was high, doing well. Heard about the sleeve surgery from another CKer. Thought it was drastic.

Gotta love Hubbies who'll take such flattering photos!

January 2009- 130.7 Still down on previous year, but I had gotten to 123.5kg in June 2008, then hit a psychological barrier. so was feeling incredibly despondant and had lost motivation and seemed to sabotage myself severely. Had spent some time thinking about the sleeve surgery. Researched and talked online with people who had the surgery. Booked an appointment with a surgeon in December 2008

January 2010- 151kg. Plot was lost completely. I was still to gain another 3 kilos to reach my highest weight ever. Considering that my goal was to be at my goal weight by the time my now 6yo started school in Feb 2010, this was just a horrible time in my weightloss progress (or lack thereof). Had spent some time thinking about the sleeve surgery. Researched and talked online with people who had the surgery. Booked an appointment with a surgeon in December 2009

Back up again.

January 2011- 106.7. In April 2010 I completed 3 weeks of Optifast and then had my vertical sleeve gastrectomy at the start of May. I had complications of a leak and spent the next 2 and a half months in and out of hospital and being nil by mouth a lot of that time. a total loss over the year of 47.3kg.

January 2012- 97.8. Spent most of the year with a hole in my stomach, that doesn't seem to want to heal. Had a stent put in in December, hoping that it's solved the problem. Weightloss was incredibly slow for almost a year, only losing a couple of hundred grams a month. This time it was ok, because no matter how bad I felt, I couldn't physically sabotage my weightloss efforts. I will not go back to where I was. So I rode it out and then my body decided to give me a 7kg loss in the last couple of months of the year.

I still have exercise to help me reach my goal. I have 22.8kg to lose to reach it. I haven't done much exercise since my surgery. I did get back to netball until I had my stent put in and I did do some swimming in the brief time that my stomach was healed. I had about 2 months. So there is lots more to go. Hopefully when this stent comes out we'll have found that it's all good and I can get back to a real life, not this limbo.

So, my goals for this year. 

Lose the last 22.8kg and reach my ultimate goal weight. Then have some gorgeous "after" photos taken.

Get a job. My bank balance dictates it. I've loved being home with my girls and wouldn't change a thing, but they're both off to school this year :'-(  So it's time for me to find something for me. Scary when you've spent the last 8 years growing and raising children.

Clean my house...ummm should be a goal for each day, but I just get so overwhelmed at times, I just shut doors and try to avoid it. It's time for my house to be presentable. My girls want to have friends over and I need to have a home they are comfortable bringing people into. Once my boarder goes and I can move the girls around into their own rooms, it will be so much easier to get things in order.

I think that will do for now. I may think of other things, but that can be added to future blogs... Oh, another goal.

To blog everyday. It may be boring waffling, but it's my blog and I'll waffle if I want to.





So that's me all set for 2012. I was going to make a flip comment about the Mayan calendar, but the doomsayers say the world isn't going to end until December 21!! Gees, That's pretty much the whole year. Hope I have everything pretty much done by then!
Although I know someone who's birthday is that day. If the world ends before he gets any presents, he'll be really pissed off!

Til next time,
Ness