I'm a mess. I just can't help myself. I go out for dinner with friends, then I come home and beat myself up because I don't say the right thing, or I don't keep my mouth shut enough.
Why can't I just be me? Why can't I just be happy with me? One of my friends is absolutely gorgeous. She's had 4 kids and is beautiful. I could only wish to be as beautiful as her. Yet, she comments that her thighs are too big and her belly is ruined from having twins. It's sad. I told her I'd swap in a heartbeat. Somehow she's not taking me up on it.
I guess we all have our issues. Mine are always social. I wasn't even going to go tonight. No clothes to wear, tired. Knew I'd stuff up somewhere. It's never end of the world stuff, but once I get really tired, like the end of the night, it's pretty close to it.
How's this, the waitress had to check whether I was a guy or a girl. Gee, way to make me feel good!! :( Admittedly I was behind someone else from her view, but still, sheesh!!
tired rantings now. It's bedtime.
Til next time,
Ness.
Ness, I have spent time with you and have NEVER thought you have said too much or too little or anything weird. You are a funny, intelligent, witty, beautiful person, and I would chat to you every day if we lived near each other. And I an POSITIVE your other friends feel the same. If they didn't, you wouldn't be getting invites out to dinner.
ReplyDeleteNo more beating yourself up please. Take pride in who you are, because you are beautiful, inside and out.