Slack, slack, slack!!
Ok, so last week's weigh in saw me gain 1/2 kilo, but an unofficial weigh in saw me lose another 100g off my lowest weight, so go figure?
Focus hasn't been good, obviously, cos I haven't been on here. I guess I didn't want to do a negative blog, cos no one wants to read that, right?
But as I am writing this for me, and I know the one or two people who do read this who would kick my butt for not writing, here we go!!
I have been feeling pretty down. Last Monday I just stayed at home and was miserable. I was supposed to go bowling and just didn't feel like it. I spent the afternoon deleting gaming friends from Facebook. (I've deleted most of my games, except packrat)
I deleted one friend who had been a good friend, but had just disappeard from my life. It was sad, but it was harder to see photos of her kids come up on my Facebook. I miss them.
I had to go pick 5yo up from school. I saw my teammates, one of them made me laugh and I realised that everything would be ok.
I don't know why I am so intent on not reaching my goal of 106 kilos. It's 3 kilos FFS!! I am not eating right, I haven't been making exercise part of my routine. I am sabotaging majorly.
My counsellor is starting to get peeved with me. I can see her point. I am the only one who can do this. Nobody else can.
It's 5 o'clock. I want to go and eat. While it is coming onto tea time, I did have a banana only an hour or so ago. I think it's more the fact that my printer is out of ink and I can't even read the Superannuation rollover form that I wanted to fill in and post off tomorrow. I can't fix it now, so I'm getting a little stressed.
6pm. I'm over the printer... I had a piece of raisin toast at 5:30. I've made the girls dinners. So appreciative, 4yo says "yuk" and 5yo is waiting for it to cool down... hmmm...
6:30,I've tidied my computer desk, so I know where everything is and have gotten rid of the crap that shouldn't be there. I'm trying to make space so I can do the homework the counsellor set me. Hubby's just walked in and I'm off to make his dinner.
Gee, this has turned into an exciting blog. I can even distract myself from blogging by finding other stuff to do.
Maybe one day I'll be able to do one thing at a time and finish it before I start the next thing... Maybe!!
Til next time,